I know it took forever for me to process these. Apologies. At the end of the blog is a series of shots I took on the Bourbon Trail and in my dad's garden.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Severely Unemployed and still missing my summer
I'm home! Not a week passed before a ticket cashier at a movie theater in my hometown was responsible for striking a strange love of home into my chest with the simple saying - "Oh bless her heart!" Despite the cultural tendencies for Kentucky to linger on the precipice of "Southern Charm," I hadn't heard the phrase once in my stay there aside from explaining to some northern folk of the ways of the South. It was odd to be driving home, weaving through the traffic I learned how to drive in six years ago. Unpacking the car, I continued to marvel at how much useless crap I'd taken with me and couldn't stop feeling like I was just home for the weekend before returning to my company and my work at Fort Knox.
Cue the entrance of joining the majority of my fellow graduates - unemployed and "actively searching." Along with packing and moving and packing and moving, I've embarked on paying the bills through free lance design jobs, only one of which have I secured of the paying variety.... and don't pay enough to cover everything. I've managed to set up house with some good friends of mine whose policy on rent is "pay what you can when you can," and I find that my adventures to Knox and back have probably given me the best gift there is - knowing whose really got my back.
Now I'm not saying that all of my friends and family should have been glued to their computers, eyes glazing over in the white-blue light of the screen, drool dribbling out of the right corner of their hap-hazard gob as they flip through my daily gallery, but I honestly feel about 600x more motivated and focused when I know that people are investing effort to see where all of my effort is going. Most careers, it's pretty straight-forward. You get up, work a shift, come home tired and grumpy, get paid, buy stuff, go to work... this isn't journalism. And I find now that my patience thins in explaining why I was out of touch this summer. I shouldn't have to. You should know.
This little annoyance is how I've discovered that I am SO incredibly, amazingly blessed with such kick-ass awesome friends and family who were checking on a weekly basis to "see how Heather's doing." And they didn't do this by calling (thank-you for that, cuz in all honesty, I was probably working), or complaining about not hearing from me, or sending me eighteen pages of "my life story for the last day and a half that we haven't spoken because you MUST know EVERY detail of EVERY day" (long title) that I did not have time to read, but rather, doing what I really wholly appreciate, checking my photo blogs. Not this one, I was pathetically horrible at staying with this one, but rather the one with the LTC website. Yea, the one I posted to my facebook when I had a day that I really enjoyed. The one that was my job. Yea, that one. Being home now, and hearing all of the comments from my own family and friends rather than people I've never met a day in my life - "I could really see how much you improved," "You did a great job, I loved those night frames!" "No wonder, those photos were with the cadets all day, and you could really tell" - I don't think I can even begin to explain how comforting it is to know that there are people in my life who understand what I'm trying to do here.
I miss Knox. I miss it terribly, and every day. I had been feeling so much pressure the last few months of college - a strange concoction of expectations, adulthood, and impending doom. It felt like a really bad massage. "This is supposedly making your life better but it's making you feel like shit." That feeling. And at Knox, it was like I'd sunk into a hot tub and the hours, the job, the people I worked with, the lifestyle, all of it just melted away all of that stress, the worries, the pressures, the incessant feeling that I was a new me fighting to shake off my old skin. I felt like myself. And now I'm addicted to that feeling, and I don't ever want to go back.
I don't know if South Carolina can be home anymore after a summer like that. I'm a brand new me, a me I really like, a lot. And I don't want to go back. Of course, I'll go (or stay) wherever the green takes me (ha, that could be money OR the army, did you see that? :P ), but I have to honestly say that I really hope it isn't here. I will miss my friends and family, but I truly feel that it's time for Heather to leave the nest and fly a little more.
Cue the entrance of joining the majority of my fellow graduates - unemployed and "actively searching." Along with packing and moving and packing and moving, I've embarked on paying the bills through free lance design jobs, only one of which have I secured of the paying variety.... and don't pay enough to cover everything. I've managed to set up house with some good friends of mine whose policy on rent is "pay what you can when you can," and I find that my adventures to Knox and back have probably given me the best gift there is - knowing whose really got my back.
Now I'm not saying that all of my friends and family should have been glued to their computers, eyes glazing over in the white-blue light of the screen, drool dribbling out of the right corner of their hap-hazard gob as they flip through my daily gallery, but I honestly feel about 600x more motivated and focused when I know that people are investing effort to see where all of my effort is going. Most careers, it's pretty straight-forward. You get up, work a shift, come home tired and grumpy, get paid, buy stuff, go to work... this isn't journalism. And I find now that my patience thins in explaining why I was out of touch this summer. I shouldn't have to. You should know.
This little annoyance is how I've discovered that I am SO incredibly, amazingly blessed with such kick-ass awesome friends and family who were checking on a weekly basis to "see how Heather's doing." And they didn't do this by calling (thank-you for that, cuz in all honesty, I was probably working), or complaining about not hearing from me, or sending me eighteen pages of "my life story for the last day and a half that we haven't spoken because you MUST know EVERY detail of EVERY day" (long title) that I did not have time to read, but rather, doing what I really wholly appreciate, checking my photo blogs. Not this one, I was pathetically horrible at staying with this one, but rather the one with the LTC website. Yea, the one I posted to my facebook when I had a day that I really enjoyed. The one that was my job. Yea, that one. Being home now, and hearing all of the comments from my own family and friends rather than people I've never met a day in my life - "I could really see how much you improved," "You did a great job, I loved those night frames!" "No wonder, those photos were with the cadets all day, and you could really tell" - I don't think I can even begin to explain how comforting it is to know that there are people in my life who understand what I'm trying to do here.
I miss Knox. I miss it terribly, and every day. I had been feeling so much pressure the last few months of college - a strange concoction of expectations, adulthood, and impending doom. It felt like a really bad massage. "This is supposedly making your life better but it's making you feel like shit." That feeling. And at Knox, it was like I'd sunk into a hot tub and the hours, the job, the people I worked with, the lifestyle, all of it just melted away all of that stress, the worries, the pressures, the incessant feeling that I was a new me fighting to shake off my old skin. I felt like myself. And now I'm addicted to that feeling, and I don't ever want to go back.
I don't know if South Carolina can be home anymore after a summer like that. I'm a brand new me, a me I really like, a lot. And I don't want to go back. Of course, I'll go (or stay) wherever the green takes me (ha, that could be money OR the army, did you see that? :P ), but I have to honestly say that I really hope it isn't here. I will miss my friends and family, but I truly feel that it's time for Heather to leave the nest and fly a little more.
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| The last sunrise at Knox. |
Saturday, July 9, 2011
"Is Cadet Reid even there???"
"OK…is Cadet Reid even there??? I have not seen him since the arrival of Charlie Company. Please put a mom out of her misery and take a picture of him!!!!!" No, you're right, I have nothing better to do with my time then hunt down your son and follow him the rest of the day so his clingy mother can continue to not deal with the fact that her son is trying to learn some independence and discipline and become a man. I'll get right on that.
Parents continue to comment on galleries at least ten times a day. I appreciate that they are enjoying my photos, but I kind of wish it would put a little more perspective into them what their kids are trying to do here. And that is, become something of substance, contribute, be stronger, smarter, faster, more confident, more efficient, a leader. On day four, when Cadets were maneuvering the team development course, a mom called the base with some bullshit "emergency" so she could talk to her son. Really? Day four! Maybe this is crazy talk, but I think college is about time that mom should snap the umbilical cord. But then again, I've been told I tend to be overly opinionated and independent.
Anywho. Mucho thanks to the DSs who checked out the DS blog and continued to harass me about not having enough of them specifically :P Hopefully this batch (the Cadet's victory dunks included) will help curb your appetite for flattering photos.
After the DSs got dunked today, the Cadets quietly began a chant to dunk me as well. Luckily, the DSs had taken back control and I was safe. :P.... this time....
Parents continue to comment on galleries at least ten times a day. I appreciate that they are enjoying my photos, but I kind of wish it would put a little more perspective into them what their kids are trying to do here. And that is, become something of substance, contribute, be stronger, smarter, faster, more confident, more efficient, a leader. On day four, when Cadets were maneuvering the team development course, a mom called the base with some bullshit "emergency" so she could talk to her son. Really? Day four! Maybe this is crazy talk, but I think college is about time that mom should snap the umbilical cord. But then again, I've been told I tend to be overly opinionated and independent.
Anywho. Mucho thanks to the DSs who checked out the DS blog and continued to harass me about not having enough of them specifically :P Hopefully this batch (the Cadet's victory dunks included) will help curb your appetite for flattering photos.
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| The cadets worked in squads to race each other across the one rope bridge at Stream Crossing. Build rope bridge, move across, take down, done. |
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| DS Williams made a wager with his platoon that Drills would cease fire on disciplinary action for a day if the cadets beat his cadre in the stream crossing race. The cadets lost. |
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| Just playing during the Stream Crossing safety brief. Hi, Sara! |
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| During a CWST (Combat Water Survival Training) story last week, I spent two days in this corner trying to get this shot. When my Charlies went, I got the shot on shutter click #2. :) |
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| The DS and LTs practiced several times to ensure a victory vs the cadets in the stream crossing race. |
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| Cadets lined up in the basement of the barracks, containing the weaponry for Charlie Co. to be issued their M-16 for their first round of BRM (Basic Rifle.... something...) |
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| DS Kizanis apparently has some variety of civilian profession in the world of guns. |
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| Cadets building a one rope bridge at stream crossing. |
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| Hooking up to the bridge to cross it. |
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| Morning PT at Fit Factory |
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| Fit Factory |
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| Squad Tactics - Individual Movement Training, where they learned low crawls, high crawls, and rushes through a muddy obstacle course. |
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| got a little bored at squad tactics |
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| The grossest looking MRE I could find - cornbread stuffing. I settled for pasta. |
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| The zipline at Where Eagles Dare, the high ropes course. |
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| The climbing tower. |
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| Zip-line |
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| BRM-1. This picture makes me nervous about them shooting live rounds tomorrow. |
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| So does this one. |
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| First LT Daniel, Charlie Co. Chaplain, preparing to cross the step-bridge. |
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| This is that cross-roped section I was talking about. This Cadet is trying to steady himself as he turns to face the opposite direction and slide the rest of the way down. |
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| A lot of the Cadets pose and cheese into the camera more often than I would like, though it is always a laugh when they do. |
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| Charlie videographer Tyler prepping to Zip |
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| Tyler Zipping |
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| DSs watching their flock |
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| Colonel Fitzgerald awarding platoon streamers at the Terrain Walk Safety Brief |
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| A Land Navigation Cadre briefing cadets before their Terrain Walk, to familiarize them with navigation skills. |
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| DS Hogan helping with the open wall of the rappel tower. |
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| An extremely enthusiastic rappel tower Cadre who promised to Aussie off the open side (front facing rappel with no wall) and bailed. |
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| I think that's DS Wonderlin but I'm not sure. |
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| Desirae, Bravo videographer, and Sara, writer, rappelled with Charlie. |
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| Desirae has done this before. |
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| Sara has not. |
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| The 51-ft rappel tower. And yes, I did it. |
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| Cadets worked in buddy pairs on the Land Nav course before their test, both in day light and at night. |
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| I find this hilarious cuz the Land Nav cadre is pointing one way and the Cadet isn't quite in agreement. |
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| Rough day at Land Nav. |
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| LTs of Charlie wandering the course to pass time |
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| REALLY a challenge to shoot, but still fun. At night, the Cadets get red flashlights to prevent them from losing their night vision, but still offer a little visual assistance in reading their maps. |
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| "Sounding off" (speaking loudly) the Co. Motto, killing time before they can start Night Land Nav. |
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| At dusk on test day, the Cadets were released to locate two of three given points on the map. The have two hours. The course is two miles wide at its widest point. |
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| Go Cocks! :) -- Found it after several hours wandering the In-Processing station, which is littered with college parafenalia |
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| Cadets sound off a "long count" while they clear a Zodiac boat at "Call of the Wild." Cadets count off each member to be sure they're clear before capsizing the boat. |
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| DS Krulic getting some video for the Co. DS video at the end of the cycle. |
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| Camera battle. I always win. :P |
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| Another event at Call of the Wild is challenging Cadets to build flotation devices and race each other around the buoy and back to shore, with the flotation device remaining intact. |
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| Charlie LT motivating his squad to get in gear. |
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| Water Cadre (the COW Cadre are also in charge of the pool - CWST) Captain Morgans a pose while his squad paddles the Zodiac ashore following a practice run before the race. |
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| Charlie Cadre position to capsize the Zodiac. |
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| Charlie Cadre capsizing. |
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| Charlie Cadre still capsizing. |
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| It was a close call in the end of the race. |
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| Cadre. |
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| The wager was if the Cadre won, Cpt Parsons goes for a swim. |
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| The Cadre won. |
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| Cadets position for capsize. |
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| Cadre race. |
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| This race the Cadets won, so they won the wager of getting to see a few of their Cadre get tossed into the lake. |
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| One wasn't enough for the Cadets, as they (coached by the DS) pushed for Colonel Fitzgerald to take a dip as well. |
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| Drill Sergeants and LTs happily assisted the Lt Col into the lake. |
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| Still starved for retribution of their victory (one of the squads broke an LTC record), they demand the DSs too, go into the water. |
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| And so it starts. |
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| DS McWILLIAMS returning from his "swim" |
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| Stream Crossing photo going on display to represent my Co. :) |
After the DSs got dunked today, the Cadets quietly began a chant to dunk me as well. Luckily, the DSs had taken back control and I was safe. :P.... this time....
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